Caught

Caught in a power struggle
Between who I was and
who I am supposed to be.
Trying to make sense
of my life.
Often confused
Never fully understanding.
Looking for meaning
an endless search.
an explorer on a voyage
with no end in sight.
Am I the girl I knew?
or the woman I want to become?
6 years gone in a flash
Spent high, lost.
6 years of thinking one way,
now starting over from scratch.
Caught in a power struggle.
Who will win?
The girl I was or the woman I am yet to be?