Life of Becka

Confessions of a Dreamer

Someone Else’s Life.

I have often been accused of over sharing. Spilling to my off my life in public, not holding back enough. The truth is, that’s not a lie. I do over … Continue reading

October 18, 2011

Waiting for the Phone to Ring

A few weeks ago I went to my OBGYN because I felt a small pea sized lump in my breast and this really weird large mass next to it. He sent me for a mammogram which was followed by a sonogram which was followed yesterday by a core biopsy. Below is just a brief little poem on what the waiting has felt like today.

February 25, 2010

A Love Story

Before I, or he knew what was happening our e-mails began turning more and more hopeful, wishful, full of promise. By the second time I saw him a month later, I was completely head over heels, by the third time I saw him, I said yes when he proposed to me on the same beach where we had met 3 months before. Two months later I packed all my worldly possessions into two boxes and shipped them to IL. Next I packed myself and two children onto an airplane to start our new life.

February 13, 2010 · 3 Comments

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all of my friends here on the net. Here is wishing you a safe and happy holiday and hoping that the new year brings each of you … Continue reading

December 25, 2009

Baby Steps

I truly encourage each of you to think of your own baby steps. Perhaps you have recently ended a relationship, or started a new job, or have a desire to get fit. Whatever your goal or change in your life is, start each day with one small step. Before long you will find that instead of walking towards your goal, you will be sprinting, and the result at the end of that finish line will be so worth the effort!

I truly encourage you to think of your own small steps. Perhaps you have recently ended a relationship, or started a new job, or have a want to get fit. Whatever your goal or change in your life is, start each day with one small step. Before long you will find that instead of walking towards your goal, you will be sprinting, and the result at the end of that finish line will be so worth the effort!

December 4, 2009 · 7 Comments

Aliens Have Invaded

During the years that my addiction to Adderal progressed I became more and more obsessed with my creative side. Designing for hours on end, sometimes for days, forgetting everything around me as the ideas took hold and needed to be expressed. I would sometimes start a project at 6 in the morning only to realize that 5 hours had passed and I had not eaten, or gotten up from my computer for the entire day. Forget about getting dinner ready or doing laundry, I could not be bothered with such trivial things while the art was speaking to my head.

December 1, 2009 · 2 Comments

To My Friends

To all my friends here in cyberspace. I am thankful each and every day for the chance to know you, for the opportunity to learn from you and for the … Continue reading

November 26, 2009

4 am

This is about an incident that occurred last night with my 17-year-old daughter. While she did come home safe and sound the hours that passed while we waited felt like a lifetime. I want to write it all down in effort to express the sheer terror that goes through a parent’s mind when they do not know where there child is, even if it is only for a short time.

November 25, 2009

Tis the Season…For Giving Back

In a world where even our televisions boast over 300 channels, shopping for the holidays can take on a competitive sports quality, racing one another to get that last doll or the best deal on the perfect video game. So how in today’s world of never ending choices do we focus on making our kids happy while still teaching them the value of giving back?

November 17, 2009 · 2 Comments

My Battle with Food

I have a hate / hate relationship with food. I hate that I have to eat it, I hate that I actually need it. Every day it is the same routine. First I pop that glorious orange pill of mine that does nothing for my ADHD but works wonders on my appetite. Then I down 1, 2, 3 cups of coffee (I stop counting after a while) and chain smoke cigarettes until the afternoon.

October 13, 2009

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