Life of Becka

Confessions of a Dreamer

Three Little Words

My name is Rebecca Lynn and I am an addict. I’ve been one since the age of 15. Everyone assumes that addiction is only about drugs. That’s not true. For … Continue reading

March 23, 2012

Someone Else’s Life.

I have often been accused of over sharing. Spilling to my off my life in public, not holding back enough. The truth is, that’s not a lie. I do over … Continue reading

October 18, 2011

The Traveler

I’ve written poems before on what it is like to have most of your memories gone because of PTSD. Lately I have been feeling very worn down with not being able to remember. It is heart wrenching at times to have friends tell you of the things you did together and have absolutely no clue that it ever happened. This is just another way of trying to express what it feels like sometimes.

July 4, 2010

Waiting for the Phone to Ring

A few weeks ago I went to my OBGYN because I felt a small pea sized lump in my breast and this really weird large mass next to it. He sent me for a mammogram which was followed by a sonogram which was followed yesterday by a core biopsy. Below is just a brief little poem on what the waiting has felt like today.

February 25, 2010

A Love Story

Before I, or he knew what was happening our e-mails began turning more and more hopeful, wishful, full of promise. By the second time I saw him a month later, I was completely head over heels, by the third time I saw him, I said yes when he proposed to me on the same beach where we had met 3 months before. Two months later I packed all my worldly possessions into two boxes and shipped them to IL. Next I packed myself and two children onto an airplane to start our new life.

February 13, 2010 · 3 Comments

A New Chapter

Do you remember when we where kids and the choose your own adventure books where all the rage? I do not think I understood the parrallel of these books in relation to life itself until a very short time ago. I remember reading them with passion, trying hard to make the right choice to see where my character would go to next. As an adult I have realized how we do this on a daily basis without ever really knowing that we are.

December 31, 2009 · 1 Comment

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all of my friends here on the net. Here is wishing you a safe and happy holiday and hoping that the new year brings each of you … Continue reading

December 25, 2009

The Vigil

I am, however, so grateful for the time I have had. It is a funny thing I guess to eulogize a rat, but when you think of it, in many ways we all go through a “rat” phase in our lives. We find ourselves misunderstood, or encounter those who may not like us because of our looks or beliefs.

December 20, 2009 · 5 Comments

Middle of the Road

In my every optimistic view on life, would it not be great if rather than tearing each other apart for what makes us different, we instead took the time to embrace what makes us the same. Our need to grow, to learn, to have hope in a better tomorrow. Regardless of what “side” of the coin you fall on,I like to think the middle is a much nicer place to meet.

December 20, 2009

Caught

This year has perhaps been one of the hardest of my life. There are days where I miss the old me the one who popped a pill to forget, to function, to get through each day. Then there are days where I am filled with endless optimism and hope. Recovery from any kind of addiction is a life long process. It is the greatest struggle of all, the one you fight within yourself.

December 17, 2009 · 1 Comment