Life of Becka

Confessions of a Dreamer

The Traveler

I’ve written poems before on what it is like to have most of your memories gone because of PTSD. Lately I have been feeling very worn down with not being able to remember. It is heart wrenching at times to have friends tell you of the things you did together and have absolutely no clue that it ever happened. This is just another way of trying to express what it feels like sometimes.

July 4, 2010

Motor Running

Living with ADHD is similar to what the Energizer Bunny would probably be like in real life. Always moving and thinking, drifting from one idea, concept, and thought. It is starting 5 projects and completing none. Feeling the need to read 3 books at once. Constantly searching for an off switch that does not exist. This is a small poem that reflects how I feel some days when my thinking is chaotic at best.

November 21, 2009 · 1 Comment


When I was younger I always felt invisible. Never quite part of any particular crowd, I drifted here and there, always searching, always wondering what my place was in the grand scheme of things. These are some thoughts on how I felt as a young woman who was very unsure and still figuring out who I would become.

November 12, 2009 · 4 Comments

Stranger Before Me

Just a poem regarding the feelings that hit me from time to time as I struggle with recovering from drug induced anorexia. Sometimes the battle between getting healthy and what my warped sense of what I should look like it a difficult one to fight. Like recovery from any addiction / illness it is a day to day struggle.

November 7, 2009 · 3 Comments